I really wish people who announce their new "lease on life" would think heavily prior to announcing it. Saying your going to commit to everything you agree upon doing, is only helpful to a happier life if you actually do it. Don't boast about how you're going to try new things, do more with your spare time, and all that junk, if you're going to take it back because it's scary and new.
Strapping on a bungee rope to your ankles and walking to the edge is only risky if you actually jump. You accomplish nothing by walking to the edge, become overwhelmed with fear, and turn around with your tail between your legs. You didn't learn anything new, you didn't experience anything new, and you most certainly didn't risk anything. All you did was reaffirm your weaknesses that need a change.
Stop taking back the shit you say you're going to do, or don't say it at all. Save my ears from listening to your empty babble. You always go on and on about how every new year's beginning means it'll be your year. No, no it won't unless you change, and we both know you won't. You like who you are, even though it makes you angry and lonely.