I finally have a better understanding of myself; the person everyone always said I was but I denied. I didn't want to admit that I was scared, but I'm not like that anymore. I'm still scared of doing things but I'm not letting it stop me. From now on I'm pushing myself to overcome it, whatever it is, no matter how many times I fail before I get it right. If only I remain calm and focused, everything will work out effortlessly. I need to remember to breathe, collect my thoughts and not panic. Failure is acceptable as it teaches me what methods not to use, and I can't waste those lessons in life.
"Fear of the name only increases fear of the thing itself."Hermione had no idea how right she was. The more I scared myself about things I hadn't even tried, the more I wanted to pretend like I didn't want them. I kept creating monsters out of my dreams and desires, and it was smothering me. I was always seeing the darker sides making it impossible to let the light in. Not anymore. This year I'm stronger. No. It started November last year, and I plan to carry it on for life. Now, if only I can pluck up the courage to sky dive. That would be the ultimate test.